LOVE- what is the meaning of this word?

Life has been full of ups and downs. Many people wish for ups than downs but in reality, downs are always in the lead. I have been thinking over and over again asking myself what's the meaning of LOVE. Does love mean everything? How can a person tell u that he/she loves you but things that he/she does and says hurt the other deeply? Can anyone define LOVE to me please?
I have been trying and trying to be happy and yet things just didn't go my way. Am I not praying enough or am I such a bad person who deserves to be hurt? I guess no one could ever answer me except God. Only God knows what is going on and only God has the answer.

Busy weekend...

I have been very busy during the weekend. On sat, I went for class (will give you all a surprise what class I attended later :P). After class, I went out with my mom and bro to go fetch my cousin. After picking her up from college, we went straight to pyramid for lunch. The traffic was terrible. We were stuck in the jam while on the way to fetch my cousin and on the way to pyramid. Everyone was so hungry because it was 2.30pm and we have yet to take our lunch.

After lunch, we went to do some shopping then we headed home. At night, I have badminton session with friends so once I reached home from shopping, I had to quickly do my homework because I have class on Sunday as well. By the time I finished my homework, it was almost time to go play badminton. Time flies.....luckily I managed to finish up my homework because if I didn't finish it before badminton, I won't have the strength to do my homework after badminton.

On Sunday was very tiring too. After having brunch with my family, I headed to class again. After class, I went out with Louis because I need to buy some stuff for doing my class homework. By the time we finished everything, it was almost 10pm. So he sent me home and we had to fetch my cousin back to college as she has class on Monday (she normally comes for the weekend for food coz she complained to her parents that her place has no food-she studies in Help). So after sending her back to college, Louis had to send me home and he headed back to his own house. We both were so tired after busy for the whole day.

I feel that I didn't rest at all since both days also I attended class but I am not complaining. I feel happy because I am learning something out of my interest. Besides doing beads earrings, I am learning this new stuff. Will disclose once I scan my homework and let u all have a wild guess. :) Must keep it in suspense first. If not my blog will sound boring. hahahahah..... :D

So please keep reading my blog if you wanna know what are the 2 new hobbies I have lately. :D

My new design for today

I was kinda moody coz I had a huge fight with Louis last night. After coming back from work, I feel kinda bored and moody. Suddenly, I thought of trying out on new design for my beads earring collection. So, I did. I made another pair of earring. It's blue because my mood is blue the whole day. Sounded so emotional rite. hahaha.. I quite like it though. Actually all also I like although it may look simple. hehehe... As usual lar, I made it on my own, of course I must like it. :D

Here goes my new earring for my moody day.. At least I managed to cheer myself up a little after making this blue earring.

My new HOBBY!!!

Two weeks ago when I was reading newspaper, I was quite impressed by one of the articles. Guess what was it!!! It's DIY beads earring. Suddenly, I have the enthusiasm to try it out. So I was asking around on where to get beads and all the necessary tools for making jewellery. One of my friend (Leo), he is very good in designing and he knows about all this. He told me the place where I could get beads and tools.

So, I went to check it out last Saturday. When I entered the shop, I was quite confused because there are too many beads and tools. I wasn't sure what should I get, so I told myself that I should bring along the newspaper and check out on internet on what is the main tools for beginner to start making earrings.

When I went home, I quickly go online to search for it and I jotted down all the things that I need and on Sunday (i.e. yesterday), I went there again to get all the tools. I didn't manage to get everything exactly as I jotted down because of have different sizes and some were too expensive. So, I just guess and pick those I think I need for making simple earrings.

After coming home from buying all the things, I was quite tired as I was out whole day. So I thought I shall chill for a while and go to bed but I didn't. I logged into facebook coz I am playing cafe world and my dishes were ready. So I had to serve it. After I finished playing FB game, I was thinking I shall take out all my beads and put it into the boxe that I bought for storing all the beads. So, I did.

After putting in all the beads, it was already 11.30pm, I thought I should go to bed but, I just couldn't resist to try out on making my very first pair of earring. So, I took out the tools and I tried to make a simple one. I just recalled the website I went to the other night on the steps and tried to do it on my own. Since I didn't buy the exact same beads and tools, I just created a simple one because all I had in mind was to try it out. After about 15 minutes, I managed to get my very first pair of earring done. Although the hook looked abit crooked after being twist and turn by me (due to inexperience in using those plier and cutter)...hahah.... but I am very satisfied with my very FIRST masterpiece.

In fact, I was so happy and although it's just a very simple earring but I still feel extremely happy because it's a self made earring. I even wore it to work today. hahahah...That shows how satisfied I am with my own DIY earring.. hahaha...

Tee dahhh......Proudly present My very own DIY earring. Designed and handmade by Elaine Soo!! \(^O^)/



I just made another 2 earrings this evening after I came back from work. Here are my other 2 masterpieces...




I will try to come out with more designs. Hopefully I am creative enough to do more nicer ones. hahahahah..... Do drop your comments if u have any suggestions on my earrings. :D

Am I worrying too much?

I slept around 9.30pm just now becoz of my headache. I woke up around 1.15am and it's 2.30am now. I had a chat with Louis and he told me he doesn't tell me many stuff becoz he doesn't want me to 'fan' him. He said I question him too much and I worry too much. In order to save all the hassle of being 'fan' by me, he chose not to tell me things.

Honestly, I feel sad hearing that but of course I admit I will ask alot of questions when I found out something. To me, I ask alot becoz I care about that person. If I don't care, I wouldn't even bother to know anything. I worry is becoz him and I are together. Of course I worry especially about his career. I am just a normal girl, I need security that's why I am worry.

Sometimes I ask myself, "Elaine Soo, what are u worrying about? Why are you so afraid of the future with him? Why?" I just couldn't answer myself. Probably all my friends are happily married with kids and have a capable and loving husband. I want that too but somehow I feel Louis still can't provide me with that yet. That is why I am worry. As for a guy, they won't know what a girl thinks and worry about. All they feel is we girls always 'fan' them.

I wonder is it my problem or is it problem between Louis and me. Every single time when we talk about career, we tend to fight or upset over it. That's why Louis always chose not to talk to me about it. I wish I can let all this go and just be happy and enjoy but I just can't do that. If he is not my bf, then I can but he is my bf, I just can't ignore everything. I wish he can understand but I guess he can never understand or he choose not to understand maybe.

Sigh.... I wish all this will end. I pray that everything will go smoothly and there won't be any problem but I know life will never be so smooth. I know there is always different obstacles coming around. Maybe I should learn harder on how to deal with it. If I really can't, then I shall just let him go coz I really don't want to 'fan' anyone anymore.

This is specially for you..Mel..

Actually I haven't been writing updates in my blog lately. Prolly I am too busy playing facebook game. I am so sorry to all of you who have been waiting to read my blog. One of my friend (you know who lar) has been complaining that I didn't write any updates and she is bored coz each time she logged into my blog and see no update.

Not sure is it because I haven't been writing for too long. I have run out of things to write. I am not sure what should I write. hahahaha.....

Erm, let me think...oh yah... the most recent disaster that happened in my house was my maid. She went insane. She said she was cursed by her own grandmother. She told me that her grandmother wants her to die and she wants her grandmother to die too. She told us if she doesn't go back to indon, she will die. It was a chaos in my house thanks to her screaming and crying around 6am and woke everyone up. We had to splash water on her then only she managed to wake up. Somehow I feel that she was pretending coz when my mom told her we will send her back, she could smile. Finally, we sent her back coz she kept screaming and crying early morning. I couldn't sleep for 2 nights thanks to her. Her scream was very scary. I was like watching those horrow movie. It was like a ghost in my house. I told my mom I feel scared and I just couldn't sleep. So till monday morning, mom and I finally sent her back to agency coz we think she wants to go home. So better we send her coz no point letting her stay at my house and start all the drama.

So we have no maid at home now. My mom is scared of all this silly maid. This time, we have to apply a new maid again coz no replacement maid coz she worked here for 15 months. So the agency fella said there won't be replacement maid. Sigh...I don't know how they control. I feel that the employer is not being protected. Employer always lose out when your maid go insane. No choice, we had to apply for new one and we have decided to try on Cambodian maid. Hopefully it's better. Or else, I also don't know how.

Erm... oh yah...Another updates, I have started my weekly badminton session finally and I managed to force Louis to join too. I wish I can start to introduce more healthy activities into my life since I have been so weak lately.

Besides that, when I was sick 2 weeks ago coz of my intestine problem again... I had diarrhoe and all and I had to cancel all my appointments with my friends and I realised something. I realised some friends we really should cherish and some is better that we throw them into the bin. As for those of you who truly know me well, you should know that I am a very sensitive person and I don't get mad at people for too long coz I don't like to hate people. So no matter how bad a person treat me, I will stil treat that person back as friends if that person approach me again. Now I think this is my weakness. Because of me being like this, I myself ended up being hurt over and over again by the same old person. So now, I have decided (actually I have decided long time but jst couldn't do it, this time I wish I can) to let go of certain people and not being affected by those people no matter what they do and say. All I want is to be happy and live life to the fullest. Those unimportant ones will never affect me or have anything to do with my life. This is what I learnt and will never tolerate any nonsense from anyone who is not worth it. Of course I am thankful that God bless me with many true friends around me.

erm...ok lar, I think that's all for my latest updates. I promise I will write more from now on. I think I will too coz I am starting to get bored of those facebook game. hahahahha......

oh yah, one more thing, I am having a new hobby. Will keep it as a secret 1st. Later will update u all. :)

I want to know what Love is

This is a great song and Mariah's version is awesome too. Although her voice cracked (because this live show is in the morning) but she did great especially on the last part where she did her wellknown whistle.... that was awesome!!!!! I love her!!!

I want to know what love is, I want you to show me. I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me....

Enjoy this live performance from our one and only Mariah Carey.. (^o^)